The day started with my friend coming over around 6 PM, we decided to eat some mushrooms. I had 2 1/2 g and he had one. We split a beer and then had one other in addition to a 300mg edible, I could feel it all coming on as he left around 730. I then felt the need as if I was being pushed to eat more.
After around 20 g I started to lose touch with reality intermittently. I started trying to talk with people online and over text for some reason, as if I thought I was going to disappear. By around 1045 I was almost completely unable to communicate. I made a video diary that is understandable but not very coherent. That is around the time that I finished the bag and went in for several other hand falls. Over the three hours I consumed an entire bag plus several small handfuls. 28+??? I had been washing it all down with beer as it didn’t make me wanna vomit. I had consumed three beers from 6-11. By the time I had finished chewing I can only be described as a DMT blast off at this point. I remember being able to see but with so many visuals I think my brain stopped processing. My entire vision was covered in moving images made of animal faces and fractals over imposed and interacting with everything in my environment.
I quickly became sick due to the sheer volume of mushrooms and dizziness. I blame the edible for having limited nausea, restricted to an estimated 10 to 15 minutes of purging. (time didn’t exist so purely guessing) I got up to go to the bathroom. I stopped to look at my face in the mirror and saw a stranger in the reflection. My face distorted, skin crawling, pupils so large my eyes looked black. Then I could feel it coming up, I grab the trashcan and set up on the now melting toilet. I started the purge from both ends. Once my head was in the black bag inside of the trashcan I was quickly hit with the most intense visuals of my entire life. Visuals is an understatement, a full on disembodiment of self. Zero control. I could’ve been dead for all I know. I was for all Intents and purposes, dead. I was violently shivering, cold but also burning hot and sweating buckets. I was absolutely terrified. I was able to gather myself after a period of time when I finished purging. I had a short burst of visually impaired but mentally lucid series of actions. I was able to turn on the shower and clean myself off before getting in. Once the shower was warm I got in immediately, I stayed in it for a very long time as it felt warm and safe. I blocked the vents and the door so it would stay warm from drafts. When I was in the shower I would close my eyes frequently and for a long time as having them open was overwhelming. Several minutes had passed and I opened my eyes to a room full of steam. It would dance and form faces and figures, once I closed my eyes the faces would stay. They started mouthing some sort of chant or words I couldn’t make out . I got out of the shower and quickly covered myself head to toe with towels, I thought if I didn’t I would freeze.
Shuffled to my room and threw on sweatpants and a hoodie, every time I went to dry my head, put on clothes it would propel me into another vision due to it being pitch black. I covered my self in all my comforters and tried to sleep. This is when the wild visions started. Entities that presented as everything from God, death, mushrooms, depression, anxiety, PTSD. They all presented as bodiless consciousness, I did not see them but could feel and hear their presence. For some reason I took a liking to death, he showed me what felt like spirit death thousands of times, I became nothing.
That night was a tripping stupor marked with intermittent wakings and spasms as if falling. The night was filled with many visions that will probably stay trapped in my head for many years to come. I’m sure I’ll never remember or figure out what a lot of them were or their purpose, if there was one.
The next day I woke up feeling at ease. Well actually I ran around the house to make sure I didn’t do anything bad. After that I have never felt more relaxed in my life. I have PTSD and other Neuro divergent traits that stem from genetics and childhood abuse. What presented as Death showed me terrifying things, I feel as though my trauma had partially died with me. I know it’s still there. My brain is like…”that’s what you’re worried about right now? You are happy to be alive. You are happy you got a family. You’re happy you’ve got a kick ass job. You got some major life work ahead to spread these little saints”
A unique Cubensis first collected by LJ on the Arenal Volcano in Costa Rica. These are the F2 grow by BAS. Expect great and unique variation from these. Third photo is of the original specimen collected from the south side of the volcano. These are truly a winner. Expect Umbonate caps, consistent flushes and a new strain for your library.
Tosahatchee is a wild Psilocybe Cubensis originally collected by InoculateTheWest in the cattle fields of Central Florida. It's name Tosahatchee comes from the region it was collected. These spores come from the first domesticated grow of the wild specimen. Basidium Equilibrium found these to be an extremely rewardgin strain to work, and the potency to be beyond any Cubensis he's experienced (MORE POTENT THAN APE). We are grateful and proud to present to you, Psilocybe Cubensis Tosahatchee.
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